The Surgery and The Disappointment

I got the call from the nurse letting me know that my insurance would pay for the surgery 100% IF it was done before the fiscal yr ended which is Oct. 1. I said ok, when !?? My pre op appt - Sept. 13th and the surgery would be Sept 15th. First, that is the same weekend that my uncle has his BBQ and I really didnt want to explain why I was having the surgery done.The pre op appt was going well until the very end of the appt.. Dr Le was so sweet. He hated that we had to drive the 6 hrs {round trip} for a 30 minute appt. I had already had a lap done so I knew what was involved but it was good having him go over everything again. We were taken to a room where the finance lady came out to speak with us about the financial aspect of the surgery. My understanding was that we had already paid our co pay and our insurance would take care of it 100%. Wrong. We were told our share would be a little over $ 500.00. I told the coordinator that hubby and I would have to discuss it and would let her know the next day. We got what we needed to take over to the hospital {lab work} and headed over there to get that done incase we decided to go ahead and pay for it. We run into the same problem at the hospital about what was going to be covered, so I told Les to forget it and we headed home. Traffic was starting to get bad and we were stuck in it. I had turned my phone off, went to turn it back on and there was a message from the clinic stating they had made a misstake and everything was covered 100%, so Les had to turn back around so I could go get my bloodwork done. It was a little after 4 by that time and we needed to be back here before 9 so Les could be at school. We finally got everything straightened out, did my bloodwork and headed home. I dropped Les off at school about 30 minutes before he was supposed to be there.

Surgery Day

We picked up my step son the day before. We left around 7:30 and arrived in Ft Worth around 10 something. We got settled but had to leave around 11 because I had to be at the hospital no later than 12. Les's parents hadnt arrived yet but about 15 minutes before we left, they came in. We said our hello's and off to the hospital we went. Admittance went smoothly. I was escorted to my room and met with the anesthesiologist. The nurse came in and started my IV *ouch* and not soon afterwards, Dr Le came in and said he would do all he could to not damage anything, etc. I dont remember anything after that. The next thing I knew I was back in the room, sick to my stomach. Les said I wasnt very nice to him word wise..LOL. I was discharged and off to my uncles we went. Les showed me the pictures Dr Le had given him and told me what he said. He couldnt take my tubes out because they were stuck to my bowel and he didnt want to risk tearing it, so he cauterized both tubes at the entrance of the uterus. The adhesions came back with a vengence and he lysed those down.I was also informed I have what is called a frozen pelvis.

Recovery

It wasnt too bad, especially since I was on Vicodin. Im slowly but surely getting better. It's nothing like the surgery I had last Oct, thank goodness. Ive gone from just spotting to a full blown mentrual cycle , which I hate because I wasnt due to come on til Monday. I dont know how this will affect my cycles now.

Follow Up's

Emotionally, I was a mess. I felt like I had lost contol over the one thing I should have control over, my body. It started to set in that I will NEVER get pregnant without IVF, even though I knew my tubes had to be removed. At least each month when I did the OPK's, there was a "chance" that I might get pregnant again. Now that's gone and Im hurt, Im ANGRY. Im angry at my ex husband and at myself because of the reason why my tubes were so badly damaged. It could have come from him and his cheating. I do know from his medical records that what he had is the MAIN cause of hydrosalpinxed tubes. But I never got tested because I never had any symptoms. Or it could have happened "prior" to my meeting him. I will never know.

October 2006

I saw the doctor again in October. I was going in to have an antral count done, but wouldnt you know it, a big ole cyst came up instead. I affectionately named her Nessie.



I was put on birth control to try and shrink it cause Lord knows I didnt want to have any more surgeries. I also had to get my E-2 and FSH levels done that day.

Results: FSH ~ 9.2

E-2 ~ 45

Probably high because of cyst

My FSH is also on the high side. I emailed my RE about the results and was told that I should just go straight to using donor eggs because Im borderline in having a diminished ovarian reserve. I didnt want to accept that just yet and was told that with other factors, such as one of my ovaries being too high and may be unable to reach during retrieval, along with all the adhesions and scar tissue, attempting IVF using my own eggs would porbably only result in 5 eggs total. Well the way I see it is, if we get one baby out of those 5, then we'd be happy. He agreed to let me pursue IVF using my own eggs IF I passed the Clomid Challenge Test.

November 2006

I decided to go ahead and do some of my lab work such as Hep C/B, HIV {Negative - Get tested people}, CBC, Sickle Cell, FSH, E2 and some other stuff.

Results: FSH ~ 10.39 {Even higher}

E2 ~ 15

Sickle Cell ~ POSITIVE { Huh!?! What!?!}

I again emailed my RE and didnt get the response I wanted~ Technically you already failed the CCT ~Wouldnt be able to go any further with him unless I used a donor. Well, I refuse to go with a donor until I have tried with my own eggs first. My FSH level is high but thats doesnt mean I cant use my own eggs nor does it mean I wouldnt have a live birth.

So all I can do is pray that the upcoming cycle works and if not, then we will try again.